Life Passion
What is this feeling inside me, trying to dig its way out? Is it apprehension? Perhaps anxiety or discontent? Regardless its origin, it is something I'm not altogether familiar. I am one who is normally extremely content with life. I don't struggle with trusting God with His plan for my life (at times I wonder, but it's few and far between). What's different? Is it that I'm about to turn 25, or perhaps reading all my friend's blogs and seeing them struggle with the deep questions of life, or maybe, just maybe it could be that I've neglected focusing on what in the world it is that God wants me to do when I "grow up." God has blessed me and my life in so many incalculable ways I can't even begin to describe it. I have family and friends that make me wealthier than any billionaire on earth. They are all strong Christians that want to see God's best in my life, and yet I have such a hard time taking advice and applying it. Why do I struggle with this? Because I perceive their advice to be what they want to see me do in life, not what I desire. My perceived notions would be wrong, most people want to see me find my niche and so they give advice based on how they might achieve that. Some have told me I need to go to college, and yet I struggle against that with every fiber of my being. Why should I go to college, to get a good job? I already have that! According to the world I have become a moderate success, and I know that if I continue in the "career" track I will only do better and better in life. If going to college is not just about a good job, maybe it's about learning how to think or becoming a well rounded individual, perhaps it's to show others and yourself that you can start and finish something (self-discipline). Isn't this what life's all about? Why pay someone else tens of thousands of dollars to do this? (I don't deny the benefits of college to anyone, it's just something I've personally struggled with.) And so I sit here in Indianapolis, Indiana at the top of the globe, the world awaits me, sitting at my feet, begging to be explored. And it strikes me, I'm not looking for a career or job in life but a passion. A passion I can invest my life in. What is my deepest passion? What makes my heart yearn? What is that one thing I ache to do? How about you?...
inspired genius by Micah at 11:02 PM
3 Supposings:
I understand that yearning that you talk about. I think anybody, if they truly examine themselves, is going to find those areas in their life where they have a yearning to be doing something that they aren't currently doing. I think that it is one way that God guides us towards the areas that He wants to use us in maybe not now, but in the future. Thanks for the thoughts!
My life's passion... That's a good question. I feel so many things pulling at my heartstrings lately. My passion for languages. My passion for foster children. My passion for teaching. My passion for writing. Is one of these my life's passion? Do they all together equal a life's passion that isn't yet revealed to me?
"Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4
My passion? It is seeing other people be made whole-in-God so they can follow their God-given passion. But that feeling, Micah--it can be experienced at mid-life as well, or anytime I am in transition. There's a restlessness in me (sort of like spring fever, but it is no respecter of seasons...). I believe it is there to spur me on to seek avenues I have not and would not explore except for the restlessness. Without it I would move from contentment to complacency. Now? I can't wait to see how God will give me new ways to fulfill my passion... . I also can't wait to see how God will help you find your unique passion and help you fulfill it!
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